Time to let go………..

In less than two months from now, my daughter turns two and more importantly in less than a week from now my little princess starts play school…………..thus she begins her journey into a new world, a world filled with new experiences, new friends, new influences.

These are anxious and poignant times for me as a mother - Anxious because I am not sure how my little one would adjust in school, whether the new environment would make her insecure etc……………. Poignant because my baby is now entering a new phase of her life; a stage when I would be spending lesser time with my daughter, a time when I would be seeing my daughter slowly spin a world of her own, an age when she would do all the talking and I would listen. And it’s the time for me to let go…………………….

Breaking the Shackles..........

There was a news item recently that caught my attention and surprised me as well. In Chennai, a society called Men Community Development Society (MCDS) has been registered as a society and believe it or not this is supposed to be the first officially registered Gay Society in India!! The president of this society gave an interview on TV and requested that his image not be blurred (which is usually the case because of the social taboo associated with homosexuals in our society) and he wanted the world to know his sexual preference!

It has been launched by the Indian Community Welfare Organization, an anti-AIDS Non-Government Organization, with the aim to rehabilitate homosexuals and to bring them into the mainstream. Considering the social taboo associated with homosexuals and homosexuality being a criminal offence in India, this is indeed a bold step. Also I was pleasantly surprised that a city like Chennai which is still conservative in more than one way, has taken this brave step!!

Mayhem!!

I was looking forward to this Sunday because it was supposed to be the elections in our building. Got up early that day, got all the work done at home so that I could be in time for the meeting. At the appointed hour went to the office and there was no surprise in store!! I was the only woman who attended the meeting!! The men were stunned to see a woman amidst them. As the meeting proceeded, it was decided that that the elections would take place before the end of the month and not today!! (Don’t ask me why!!) But as usual (that’s what my hubby tells me) there were abuses, accusations (Thank god! They spared the chairs!!) hurled left, right and centre. There was chaos reigning there and I was shocked that no one was willing to take control of the situation and bring some order. Finally I stood up (couldn’t have faced my conscience if I sat any longer and watched all that nonsense) and requested that people close the meeting formally and fight like cats and dogs after people left.

To my surprise, my short speech was well received (with thalis if I may add!) and the meeting was closed immediately.

Couple of things crossed my mind about this experience of mine: will my participation in this meeting send signals to other women to break the barriers and step out?? I could sense that couple of men were very uncomfortable with my presence in the meeting. One even tried to stop me as I was speaking. Will there now be more conscious forces working to not get women out of their homes???

Awakening?

I am deeply engrossed in a non-fiction book (I am an avid fiction reader) after a long time. When I had gone to the book store recently, something just attracted me to this book and immediately got this as a gift for my hubby (he is more of a non-fiction reader than I am). Didn’t read the synopsis or check anything just bought it. I have never done this before and I found this strange. When I got back home and looked at the book I realized it is from the author of one of my favourite non-fiction books – The Power of Now. This book is called the New Earth and the author is Eckhart Tolle.

I generally read a non fiction book only if it is highly recommended by someone I know. But I have started reading this book before my hubby has started and I must tell u it is shaking me slowly but painfully. Its making me realize the illusions I have about myself and people /things around me. Believe me I haven’t even read half of this book yet and I can feel the impact already; it sometimes scares me!

Holi Hai………..

This is one festival I generally don’t look forward to. Its that time of the year when all and sundry take it as the best opportunity to get ‘close’ to the so called fairer sex on the pretext of applying gulal. Several times I have seen girls appearing helpless and unable to say or do anything because they are termed as spoilt sports if they complain on this day!! Besides this, I have spent several days trying to scrub off the colour during our holi days in delhi. That’s when I decided I had had enough of this festival.

Then comes my daughter into my life! She is one helluva water baby and can be in H20 for hours at a stretch. She is a child full of masti. We did not want to deprive her of getting to see what this festival is all about and so decided to take her to the place where all the kids were playing; fully equipped with pichkaris and balloons and buckets of coloured water!!! Little did I realize that I would become the target of all the kiddos down there! Was continuously attacked from all directions; then I decided I take ‘revenge’!!!!!!!!!! There began the game of throwing balloons filled with water sans the colours and wow! for several hours I became one of them and had a blast. Oh yes! My daughter and hubby joined in all this masti and we had one big happy family holi!

I am ecstatic…….

Remember one of my earlier posts regarding my daughter calling out everyone’s name but mine.

She did finally and wow! My name didn’t ever sound so beautiful and musical. It has been worth the wait!!

Unconscious & Conscious forces…………..

In a week from now, the society in which I reside will vote its management committee……….as has been the norm with several societies; women rarely feature in the scheme of such decision making bodies. Like most societies, ours is infested with dirty politics too. The last month has been rather nasty; few have been verbal with their accusations; few have taken the route of penning down their frustrations and sending out letters to all and sundry once in two days. Again it’s all the men who are doing the talking and the writing. Where are the women???

I have taken it on to myself to speak to all the women members to atleast be present for the elections this time but little did I realize that this would be such an uphill task. Some get too busy when this topic comes up for discussion; some have other plans on that day; and a few are open to admit that their husbands don’t want them to get involved in such matters!!

I am not someone who will give up so easily……………the fight is on………….I will carry on………. Need all positive energies coming my way…………………….

It’s been a while………………

Its been more than a month since my last post………….so many things have been happening but somehow didn’t feel like penning down my thoughts on anything………a low phase…………..dull moments……….. Dreamy mornings…….. Reflective evenings……………… restless nights………

Hope to get back to some active blogging soon,…………….. very sooooooooooooooon